what it feels like to be human.

when you see the top of your fishing pole move. the feeling of a fish tugging on your line. when you are waiting patiently for that fish to swallow your bate. when that fish finally bites, when he finally swallows your bate, you start to hope. you are hoping while you reel in your line that the fish stays on it.

when you reel in your line to see that you have caught a fish,

                   that's what it feels like to be human.



The feeling you get when a plane blasts off. that feeling when the plane goes insanely fast. the feeling your whole body gets when the plane leaves the ground. you look out the little circle window and you're in the air.   

  you realize that you're literally flying. 

                   that's what it feels like to be human. 

when you are watching a movie with a boy and you find yourself placing your hand closer to his. you then wait patiently, hoping that he will hold it. 

when he finally touches your hand, when he finally holds it,

                       that's what it feels like to be human.



when you wake up and pull the string on your blinds to see what the weather is like that day. you pull the string down and see something that makes you smile. a fresh bed of white, fluffy snow on your backyard grass. 

when you see that first snow of the season,

                    that's what it feels like to be human. 



those moments when you are laughing so hard that your stomach is in so much pain. it's a pain like any other. 

that pain in your stomach from uncontrolled laughter, laughter you can't stop, laughter you don't want to stop because it feels so good. 

                    that's what it feels like to be human.



the day you will take your daughter skiing for the first time. you teach her how to do "pizza" with her skis and you take her to the top of the bunny hill. you see the fear in her little eyes as she starts to go down the hill. you can't help but smile because you remember what that felt like. you remember the fear you had in your eyes. 

you watch as she slowly makes it down the hill and you watch the fear leave her eyes as she shouts, "let's do that again!" 

          that's what I imagine it will feel like to be human.



The day you will see that little girl all dressed in white. You will see the excitement in her eyes. You will see the happiness float off of her long eyelashes. 

The little girl you raised, the little girl you taught how to ski is now ready to love someone else. You can't help but smile because that's when you will know you have truly succeeded. 

            that's what I imagine it will feel like to be human.

The day you will be laying on your bed, old, fragile but very happy. The day you will conclude your journey of life, your journey of becoming something, someone of purpose.

The day you will close your eyes for the very last time. The day you will look over to see your handsome, old but happy husband holding your fragile hands. The day you will look over at the man you still love. The day you will see him smiling at you with tears in his eyes as he says "I'll see you over there soon." 

                   
              that's what it will feel like to be human.        


                                     That's when I'll know I am human.